Wednesday, August 19, 2015

Fighting Cancer..One Day at a Time

ok----
yesterday i had my pre op exam.  apparently before surgery now you have to have a physical exam to make sure you survive it.  lol.
i guess i passed.  they checked my oxygen levels, i had to walk around the hallways fast about 4 times and check me during and after.  did not need ekg as i had one recently and it proved without a doubt i still had a heart in there somewhere beating awy more or less normally.

i got weighed and found out i lost 7 lbs.  which is terrific as i will never miss it and need to lose some more.   if i agreed to chemo and radiation i bet that would be no problem but i am being stubborn.

surgery is sept 10.  i have a post op exam on the 25 where i am supposed to be cheeked by the surgeon, the oncologist and the radiation oncologist.  . it will be a long ass day as the appointments are in colorado springs which is bout a 2 hr drive away.  like i said, long ass day.

i have to say the penrose st francis / rocky mnt cancer center  center is outstanding.  if i got to have cancer that is the place to go.  did i mention earlier that they have cookies?  the good ones,  pepperidge farms milanos.  i would do just about anything for milanos.  i rarely buy them as they are too addicting.  and mango licorice.  sounds weird but daaMn, that stuff is good.  if you ever have to stop smoking get yourself about 20 bags of the mango licorice.  BIG help.

anyway--
i ams till trying to research and learn and study about this breast cancer crap.  i am not pleased to be having it and am determined to  kill it.  i told a family member that it is like entering a war.  you have to kill it before it kills you.

i have learned people dont like to talk about cancer / death / surgery as tho it is too real, too painful.  it is scary.  i wonder if it has been made to be more scary than it really is?

i keep reading about the big cancer industry that has sprung up, billions of dollars for all involved.  except the poor sob who has the cancer.

i do not believe in poisoning with chemo or killing with radiation, why do that to an alreay sick and weakened body in hopes of killing the cancer before you kill the body?  i look at my friend pete, 55 yrs old  with a cancer that started near his kidney and now has spread.  he had chemo and radiation a few times and the tumor once shrank a bunch and now it has stopped and the cancer has spread.
they made him sicker.  he has lost over 60 lbs and is a shadow of himself.  he lives on morphine and is basically waiting to die.  he has given up.

cancer is bad enough but adding chemo and rads, well, it is not a path i want to go down.     and i know it makes me sound stupid--how dare i not trust the medical community and do what they say?>  who am i to question?

well----me.  it is a historical fact that the medical community thru the centuries always considered itself the most educated, modern and scientific even while doing things like apply leeches to purge out bad blood giving arsenic for a cure and draining a sick patient and weakening them.  that so many survived over the centuries is an example of human will to survive no matter what dammit.

there is too much evidence that chemo is a flat out poison and makes people worse.  and enough to show radiation is not a great idea to poison the cancerous and healthy cells and cause a die off, hoping to not have too much a of a die off.  radiation is sort of like 'kill 'em all and let God sort 'em out' mentality.  if you survive 5 yrs after treatment you are considered 'cured' even if you die the next day so you are added to the official 'cured' stats. something off about that.

if people choose this path, i wish them all the best and a speedy recovery and 100% cure.  but i am convinced there are other tool that are just as if not more successful and do not harm the body during the healing process.  there are waay too many people killing cancer and being cured to dismiss everything beside the standard treatments approved by the AMA.

i am drawing the line on coffee enemas tho.  there are far better things to do with a good cup of coffee than put it where the sun dont shine.  but----it is something some folk believe helps them, doesnt seem to cause damage and they ue it in conjunction with other treatments to fight their cancer.

we ARE in a war.  a war to kill cancer.  there are many different tools to fight this war and some tools work better for some folk than others.  you have to find your individual tool that work for you and make you feel good and strong in your battles.

i am using 2oz essiac tea
20 B17 apricot kernals
9T lipsomal vit C
cannabis oil  2.5 gms paste 2x a day
moscow mules
--just kidding.  everyone knows a moscow mule does nothing to cure cancer but it sure does make you feel better about having it.

moscow mule recipe:
large glass
jigger of vodka
ginger beer
lime juice
lots of ice

damn good drink.  if you cant find ginger beer try ginger ale, tho it will not be as robust in flavor, but it is do-able.  i recently made some ginger extract to use instead of ginger ale.  i prefer the ginger beer by far, you can substitute if you need to, but these things are addicting and sure do make the end of the day go smooth sitting on the porch watching the hummingbirds dive bomb each other and the puppies run around causing havoc while you rest comfortably on the porch swing and let the world around you go mad-----  have another moscow mule and you wont care that the world is crashing and burning economically around you.  hope you prepared somewhat by the way, things aint looking good for the next 12-16 months.

sheeeesh.  what a time to have cancer.
sorry, i dont mean to whine, but there is so much to do this fall and im having surgery to cut 1/3 of my breast off plus some lymphs and have to do 4-6 wks recovery right in the beginning of canning and harvest time.

i dont know how i am going to deal with all this

but time stops for no one so i gots to keep on keeping on.
every once in a while i stop and have a pity party and have a good cry.  you have to or you explode.  but you cant stay there--you cant let yourself stay in some pit of gloomy self pity cause it is deadly.  that is sort of an emotional form of cancer i think.  you have to fight that too.

seems like about everything these days is a batle one way or another.

well, today is green bean day--first round of pickings.  got to do it while i can.  got to pick while i can, get as much done before surgery as possible,

fresh green beans!  man, thats some good stuff.
got the dehydrator going to finish up the zukes for this winter, when that is done i will dry todays green beans  i will can some later on, today i will be lazy and just dry them.  then i got to make some yogurt--so i got thing to do.  got to strain and bottle some tinctures that are ready too--so i better get myself going.

i wish you all the best, i wish you the good Lords blessing and protection and friendship.




Thursday, August 6, 2015

Cancer Visit

well, i had my big day in the city going to see the oncologist and then the surgeon.  it was an interesting long ass day.  when i saw the oncologist, a young guy it was obvious that he had not spent one minute on my chart before entering.  ok, i get it, maybe he has been real busy.  but then he does not seem to have a clue---so he asks me why do i think i am there.

i just looked at him a minute cause i figured it was a stalling measure while his brain gathered itelf--i dutifuloy recited the steps i had taken to discover i had breast cancer.

i asked him some questions, he was kinda vague so i let it go.  then i went to the surgeon and she was great, explained everything real well, out front, heres what we got to do sort of thing.

so they want surgery to take out a chunk about the size of a lemon she said.  will also sample the lyphs just in case and to make sure they are clear of cancer cells.  then 4-6weks recovery and then 3 weeks of radiation.  no chemo at this stage. 

i asked about her treating people who used alternative treatments and she was not thrilled but said it would be fone for supporting but the core is the surgery and radiation.

for radiation id have to go to the springs nad live there cause i cant go back and forth to the springs every day.  there is a guest house attached to the hospital so id stay there while undergoing treatment sometime in november i think.
i dont want to deal with it o i tiold them id put it off until my post op visit.

i dont want radiation.

i have been taking the cannabis paste / oil and am almost up to high dose.  it makes me groggy and sleepy until i adjust to the higher dose.   heck the surgery is not until 9/10 there is a good
chance that will do a real number on the tumor before the surgery. 
a friend is going to have to take me, and they wnat me to spend the night in the guest house then too after the surgery to make sure i am alright.  id rather just come home and go to bed, so i will see how that works out.

so, moving forward but next big step is the surgery and the tests done from that to make sure it has not spread.



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Friday, July 31, 2015

Cannabis Paste #2

i made the first large batch of the cannabis paste.  but i did 16 half pints, about a one years treatment taking about 3gms a day.

it was made with 16 oz of dried bud, chopped thru grinder to like a powder.  then put 1. 5 ounce in each half pint.  added in 2oz of coconit oil and one of vegetable glycerine.  put lids on. tight and then dropped them in hot water vat, weighted down and water bathed it all for 10 and a half hours as directed.  i kep the temp around 180 as close as possible.

took the little jars out and let them cool.  only 2 actually dealed. 
now in food canning, that is not a good thing.

usually i would remove the unsealed lids, and wipe the rims clean and then put on new lids and water bath again.

however--that is with  high acid food--with this i am not so sure so i will store them in the fridge to be safe.  i do not know why the directions do not state to pressure can these jars.  it is low acid.  i just cheked the PH in one jar = 7

so that is right in the middle.

i wondered about the 10/5 hr @ 180degrees came to be determined but the main web site is down.  there is a company n canada selling and sharing info about the paste maybe i can ask them,

to ell to the publie id think youd HAVE to have the product be pressure canned whhc is around 240 degrees.  still not too high but how long is needed to decoxilate----*sheeeesh*

it is easier to take the paste, it is easier to make it than the oil and you ge t the whole plant material.  i saw the tests done that says you get ALL the carbininoids and thc and are not throwing anything away.

i finally got a postage scale that did grams and was able to measure the daily dose i had been taking.  i had been following the advice of taking a dose the size of a pea and then i went from once a dya to 2x then 3x a day.  found out i have been taking about 4gm a day.  not a bad dose and tho i feel tired i dont feel a buzz.  just damn tired and want to lay down znd take a nap.

i will stay on this dose til i feel nothing and then increase again.  i sw one site that said 1gm - 2tsp and i measured and that did not come out right.

1/4tsp = 2gm of my stuff-
advice says to take up to 2.4gm.   i rounded up to 3gm as it was wasier.  but in all i read that is total for 1x a day dose.

gotta try to dig up some more info.  there is not a ton out there and the oi devotees seem to feel a bit threatened by the paste peol.e  lol--i cant belive i just said that, sounds like a line out of a bad B movie, ha.

anyway---the paste just makes so much more sense.  i did see a ab report from one site  that really all it said i could tell was that you get more material , more CBDs in paste, so why make the il if the paste is just as good and easier?

oh well.  we each have our own preferences.  if i feel like the paste is not working i have the option of going to the oil.

i have some research to see if anyone has presure caned the paste for X amount of time to decarb it and make sure it is safly sealed for long term storage.

Tuesday, July 28, 2015

Cannabis Paste

i have been researching the different forms of cannabis used in cancer treatment, and found it is as varied as the people.  the majority take the oil, called Rick Simpson Oil - RSO-, hemp oil, cannabis oil, etc, etc-----

Rick Simpson pioneered the concentrated oil for medical treatments.  i certai ly am not going to disparage the oil or anything about it., it has a proven track record.

i lean towards the paste form as routed by the company in CO called NewCure and now also in NZ and Canada.  there are some amazing testimonials and some really good research docs.  there is a place for both the oil and the paste.

i favor the paste because 1) it is easier to make  2) it is safer to make  3) even a half blind person like me can make it with a bit of help and 4)  you get the whole plant, nothing is wasted or tossed out.  5)  for 1lb plant you get over one years worth of treatment as opposed to getting 4-6 oz from one lb which is a 3 month treatment.

i also find it easy because i am used to canning and water bath and all that, so it is not strange for me to make the paste , a years worth in one swoop.  piece of cake.

you will need
one lb dry bud
coconut oil
32 half pint or pint jars, lids and rings
very large pot with lid
tongs, towels, hot pads, etc


take one lb dried herb buds
grind into powder
put one half oz in small canning jar like a half pint
add 2 oz of coconut oil or veg glycerine or olive oil
stir real good to mix up
wipe rim of jar clean, put lid on snug
put in hot water bath

use a very large soup pot with a lid
get water temp up to 180-185
putting all the jars in will lower temp
make sure when all jars in the water level is at least 5 inches OVER top of jars

water must be around 180 degrees F
keep range from 175-185, no higher or lower
keep water level at least 5 inches ABOVE jars
cover pot with lid
monitor temp
keep in pot for 10.5 HOURS
check water level frequently and top off if needed
this is an all day monitoring thing so so start this in the early am

AFTER the 10.5 turn off heat and carefully take out hot jrs,
 place on towel on counter
let cool and tops will ping and seal

some folks take jars every so often from the hot water and give them a real good shake to help mix things up

my first batch i tried one jar and used veg glyverine as the add in.  when i later opened the jar to test it it seemed very dry to me so i mixed in another ounce of the glycerine to improve texture.

ive seen someone who used this recipe but used 2oz of coconut oil PLUS 2 more ounce of veg glycerine.   this would certanly improve the end texture but youd need to remember if you added and increased the amount in eash jar you have to factor that to get your right dose because it would be more than the 2.4 gms dose whohc was based on only 2 oz fat, not 4--see?  just keep that in mind.


store in a place away from heat and light, a cupboard or even under a bed

dose starts with the size of a pea twice a day
you work up to taking 2.4 gms split throughout the day
do this for at least 6 months at high dosage

i have started the paste dose and am up to about half the 2.5, im going by feel on this i had to order a scale so i can measure precise.  it arrives Thursday, lol.

i take a small pea size in am after food a small one mid day and a larger one at bed.

the mid day dose made me feel draggy and tired, real turnip like.  so i stopped the dose for a couple days and just do am/ pm right now.  will do this 4 days and add in the mid day dose again.

when the scale comes i want to measure the 2.4 gm because i need to get familiar with the amount so i know what i need to work up to.

ill have the next batch in a couple days and let you know.

i have breast cancer and im gonna kick its ass

Sunday, July 26, 2015

Breast Cancer

so i got breast cancer and i am gonna kick its ass.  i already went thru the shock, fear, pain, poor me crap and am into im pissed off.

i still have to learn how big it is, where it is, etc, all the important details but i know how i am going to kill it.

cannabis oil and/or paste

im going to tell you how to make your own oil and paste safely and easily.  there is lots of info out there, and if you  are lucky enough to live in a state where it is legal, you can make your own medicine.

living in Colorado, i feel very lucky to be able to grow and buy and make my own medicine.  i am not a pot smoker, never have been  i dont use it to get high or messed up.    ive earned how to make tinctures for fibromyalgia pain that has helped a great deal, and now the paste and oil.

there are so many different ypes of plants, heck, i really have no idea on all the details.  i am growing 2 indicas called Cammomile and 4 annonymous sativas.  sativa is used for energy and perking you up, indica is relaxing and helps with sleep.

in still a newbie here and am looking for a really good high CBD strain i can keep growing with cuttings so i can keep making the paste, tincture or oil.

make your own medicine.  i will be showing you how.


2015

july 16, 2015.
new post.  heck, i didnt even know this blog still existed, i thought i can shut it down,  i guess that goes to show what i know.

i wanted to start a blog because i found out i have breast cancer.   i thought it would help to write things out, ya know?

alot has happened since i last wrote, what, ayear or more ago?  live got busy, my eyes got worse and i am truggling.  now i have breast cancer.  crap.

so i am dealing with a bunch of stuff.  have filed for disability back in march and spent alot of time sending in all sorts of records and files. .then having tests done as i had been dealing with a long term sinus thing over christmas holidays and then dizzy spells.  still got the dizzy spells.  so i was having a bunch of tests done and on a whim i had a mammogram as it ha been about 30 years since the last one.

and it showed a mass on my right breaast.  so i went back in for a diagnostic mammorgam and a sonogram and a biopsy.  it came back positve.

ductal carcinoma, focal invasive carcinoma.

sucks.

im waiting now for appointment with breast surgeon to discuss all my options, lumpectomy, radiation and chemo.

aint doing it.

i will go and talk and listen and ask questions, what stage am i, how big is it, how much and where has it spread, etc, etc.

but i tell you right now--i aint taken chem or radiation,  no way.

ie been doing some studies and decided on the cannabis oil , essiac, alkaline water, nutrients and change my diet.  other people have beat breast cacner by doing this,  i will too.



Tuesday, December 17, 2013

i am anti pretrib.  i am strenuously, , completely, enomously against the teaching of a pretrib rapture.

i used to believe in it.  until i started studying of, where it came from and found out it is a lie.  it is a big fat evil lie that has ensnared most of the church in america.  its premise is based on select quotes from scripture instead of comparing scripture to scripture in context and its based on assumptions and wishful thinking.

beliving in a pretrib is going to et you killed.  it is going to leave you totally unprepared mentally, physically and spiritually for the coming persecutions and facing the mark fot he beast.  its position will be the cause of the great falling away paul tells us about.

people who cling to it despite scriptural proof of the opposite are embracing a lie and rejecting the truth.  preachers who teach this are teaching LIES.

im going to show you the lies in upcoming posts.  because i have to.  christians have to rebuke blatent lies that hurt the body of Christ.  weiners fall back on "Oh, lets all just get along, lets not be devisive, lets not dwell on trivials topics'....all the while they spread their lies and leave the body of Christ ill prepared for what is coming.

well, im gonna tell you about their lies and their hypocriscies.  you have a right to know.  you have to know.

if a bad storm was coming that can potentially blow your house away and harm you , dont you want to know the truth about it or do you want to be told that it will never happen, all the while it is bearing down on you....

a storm is coming and im going to compare scripture with scripture and revela the pretrib lie.