Scars

i got a good look at my scars today.
not as bad as i feared, i can live with them.

got as decent nights sleep, it has been hard finding a position  comfortable for sleep, i keep trying to adjust myself cause i cant sleep on my stomach or right side, but last night, i got some decent sleep.

i stopped the pain pills on day 3 and replaced them with 2 cannabis paste capsules every 4-5 hrs. more or less and that has worked very well--works as good as the hydroco something they gave me without making me stupified.  well, if i took 3 cannabis pills it would have put me to sleep, but i felt like 2 was enough to counter the pain.

so this morning if got a good hot shower ad then took off the bandages.  i have a long cut top right of my breast near my arm and one the length of my nipple.  the surgeon definitely did NOT take out as much tissue around the tumor as she said she needed to, the size of a lemon or fist.     inb post p the nurse said the surgeon took out the size of a walnut so my guestimate is that the cannabis past helped it to shrink.  but i will check tht out when i see her again on the 25th.  why take out less if the tumor was the same size as the beginning when she told me she had to cut out a ection the size of her fist?

anyway--all i need to know is what about my lymphs?  did the cancer spread there?  once i find that out i will feel better.

thanks to all who have been praying and wishing me good things, i surely appreciate it.  God has me in his hands ....

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