prayers and blessing for those who are suffering, who are crying, hungry, hurt, abandoned, cold, in hiding, sick, running away, chased, hunted, persecuted, ,prayers Almighty God covers, defends, rescues, feeds, warms, embraces the wounded and hurting.
Sunday, December 20, 2015
Sunday, November 15, 2015
Fibro Pain helps
if you or a loved on e have fibromyalgia or nerve pain you know how hard it is to live with, deal with, relieve. it sucks and makes you miserable. some go from pain pill to pain pill and getting all drugged up and still have that damn pain.
here are a few things i have tried with very good results.
ive mentioned before i make a cannabis tincture for this. it works fantastic and relieves at least 90-95% of the pain. it just leaks thru when i am late with a dose. i take 2T about 4 times a day. thats it.
it does not get me high or loopy, tho i do not take it on an empty stomach. the stuff works. if it is legal in your state start making this stuff. it is Very easy.
i make a 50/50 blend, 50% small green leaf and 50% flower bud.
i bake the flower buds to decarboxilate, 300 degrees for 10 min.
crumble up real good and toss in gallon jar with the green leafe, cover with vodka 80 proof min or everclear, steep for 30 days.
stir and mash down every day.
strain and store back on the empty vodka bottles, LABEL AND DATE.
you can take cannabis pate capsules. this is more heavy duty and 3-4 a day works.
homeopathincs--i found at www.swansonvitamins.com, they have a house brand of homeopathics and i have tried a few different ones with very good results. they have one for fibro and one for nerve pain, one for stress, they all work pretty good. they run about $5 for a bottle of 100 pills that you take 2-3 a few times a day. they are worth trying out.
if you know of other helps please share.
the way the economy and world is marching to madness, i am doing my best to make and stock up on items i Need.
pain relief without drugging yourself up is Critical as far as im concerned and i keep experimenting.
we need to learn how to make what we need. pain relief is a biggie.
God Bless
here are a few things i have tried with very good results.
ive mentioned before i make a cannabis tincture for this. it works fantastic and relieves at least 90-95% of the pain. it just leaks thru when i am late with a dose. i take 2T about 4 times a day. thats it.
it does not get me high or loopy, tho i do not take it on an empty stomach. the stuff works. if it is legal in your state start making this stuff. it is Very easy.
i make a 50/50 blend, 50% small green leaf and 50% flower bud.
i bake the flower buds to decarboxilate, 300 degrees for 10 min.
crumble up real good and toss in gallon jar with the green leafe, cover with vodka 80 proof min or everclear, steep for 30 days.
stir and mash down every day.
strain and store back on the empty vodka bottles, LABEL AND DATE.
you can take cannabis pate capsules. this is more heavy duty and 3-4 a day works.
homeopathincs--i found at www.swansonvitamins.com, they have a house brand of homeopathics and i have tried a few different ones with very good results. they have one for fibro and one for nerve pain, one for stress, they all work pretty good. they run about $5 for a bottle of 100 pills that you take 2-3 a few times a day. they are worth trying out.
if you know of other helps please share.
the way the economy and world is marching to madness, i am doing my best to make and stock up on items i Need.
pain relief without drugging yourself up is Critical as far as im concerned and i keep experimenting.
we need to learn how to make what we need. pain relief is a biggie.
God Bless
Ponderings
ok, its been over a months since surgery and im still here. the scars are still a bit irritating but it is ok. some odd pain with them here and there, i use some comfrey salve, arnica and even some cannabis salve to help with healing and left over pain. its working.
i am currently brewing up some more cannabis tincture to get me thru the year for tghe fibro pain. it just works so durn good at stopping that damn pain i like to keep it going considering it takes me 30 days to make it.
yeah, i know--there are shortcuts but im rarely a shortcut person unless really necessary. i have been still using the cannabis paste but where i was taking 8 pills prior to surgery of the paste to try to shrink the tumor (which it did), i find that i can no longer take that high a dose, i am struggling to take 6 a day.
my body just does not want that much. it did not bother me efore, maybe made me tired, but now, i can barely take 6 and feel normal. so i went back to the tincture 2X a day and 3 pills at night.
i am trying to keep up a cancer killing dose for the full 90 days. struggling to do that.
i know with the oil--known also as Rick Simpsom Oil--you work up to 1gm a day of the super concentrated oil for 90 days to kill off cancer. with the paste, well, it is less concetrated but it has ALL the CBDs, you dont strip from the plnat getting what you can and throwing the rest away, you use the whole plant material and injest it getting the benefits of ALL the good stuff. the recommended dose is get up to 3 gms a day---but i have not seen tests on this, so i worked up the the max i could deal with which turned out to be 8gms a day.
i am still looking for more info on the paste product. actually it is easier to make and use as far as i am concermed but in truth there are several different cannabis products you can make and use, it does not have to be the RSO. that is hard for met o make with my bad eyesight, the paste is real easy for me.
anywya---i am still fighting the dizzy spells.
when taking the 8gm paste a day they stopped completely whihc surprised me. after surgery when ic ould not get back up tp the 8gm a day they came back. so i am experimetning on stuff to see what i can do. dammit. i hate them and have had aobut every test and the doczs cant find out what is causig the, so i am trying diffetn things.
went to a acupuncturist last week and it definitly helped, so will go back for another treatment this week. never tried it before and was nervous but really, id did not hurt at all and i was so releaxed i had to fight falling asleep.
anyway--still making things, experimenting.
if you want a superior CRAMP, SPASM, MUSCLE t3ension reliever here is a recipe i make regulary and it is fantastic. if you are having a charlie horse or muscle spasms, a few tablespoons of this stops it dead in its tracks.
equal parts
wood betony
wild yam
corydalis root
put in large glass jar, fill jar half full.
cover with vodka, at least 80 rpoof or everclear
stir real well and let steep for 30 days
label and date
after 30 days strain, OR just strain out what you need and let the rest continue to steep. it just gets better
take 1-3T for spasm. repeat as needed, but Most of the time, the crapm will just disappear. works for all types, of cramps, spasms. this stuff is great.
IF YOU SUFFER FROM ESOPHAGEAL SPASMS THIS WORKS
God bless and hang in there.
i am currently brewing up some more cannabis tincture to get me thru the year for tghe fibro pain. it just works so durn good at stopping that damn pain i like to keep it going considering it takes me 30 days to make it.
yeah, i know--there are shortcuts but im rarely a shortcut person unless really necessary. i have been still using the cannabis paste but where i was taking 8 pills prior to surgery of the paste to try to shrink the tumor (which it did), i find that i can no longer take that high a dose, i am struggling to take 6 a day.
my body just does not want that much. it did not bother me efore, maybe made me tired, but now, i can barely take 6 and feel normal. so i went back to the tincture 2X a day and 3 pills at night.
i am trying to keep up a cancer killing dose for the full 90 days. struggling to do that.
i know with the oil--known also as Rick Simpsom Oil--you work up to 1gm a day of the super concentrated oil for 90 days to kill off cancer. with the paste, well, it is less concetrated but it has ALL the CBDs, you dont strip from the plnat getting what you can and throwing the rest away, you use the whole plant material and injest it getting the benefits of ALL the good stuff. the recommended dose is get up to 3 gms a day---but i have not seen tests on this, so i worked up the the max i could deal with which turned out to be 8gms a day.
i am still looking for more info on the paste product. actually it is easier to make and use as far as i am concermed but in truth there are several different cannabis products you can make and use, it does not have to be the RSO. that is hard for met o make with my bad eyesight, the paste is real easy for me.
anywya---i am still fighting the dizzy spells.
when taking the 8gm paste a day they stopped completely whihc surprised me. after surgery when ic ould not get back up tp the 8gm a day they came back. so i am experimetning on stuff to see what i can do. dammit. i hate them and have had aobut every test and the doczs cant find out what is causig the, so i am trying diffetn things.
went to a acupuncturist last week and it definitly helped, so will go back for another treatment this week. never tried it before and was nervous but really, id did not hurt at all and i was so releaxed i had to fight falling asleep.
anyway--still making things, experimenting.
if you want a superior CRAMP, SPASM, MUSCLE t3ension reliever here is a recipe i make regulary and it is fantastic. if you are having a charlie horse or muscle spasms, a few tablespoons of this stops it dead in its tracks.
equal parts
wood betony
wild yam
corydalis root
put in large glass jar, fill jar half full.
cover with vodka, at least 80 rpoof or everclear
stir real well and let steep for 30 days
label and date
after 30 days strain, OR just strain out what you need and let the rest continue to steep. it just gets better
take 1-3T for spasm. repeat as needed, but Most of the time, the crapm will just disappear. works for all types, of cramps, spasms. this stuff is great.
IF YOU SUFFER FROM ESOPHAGEAL SPASMS THIS WORKS
God bless and hang in there.
Saturday, October 31, 2015
Hillbilly Ten Commandments
The Hillbilly's Ten Commandments (posted on the wall at Cross Trails
Church in Gainesboro, TN)
(1) Just one God
(2) Put nothin' before God
(3) Watch yer mouth
(4) Git yourself to Sunday meetin'
(5) Honor yer Ma & Pa
(6) No killin'
(7) No foolin' around with another fellow's gal
(8) Don't take what ain't yers
(9) No tellin' tales or gossipin'
(10) Don't be hankerin' for yer buddy's stuff
Now that's kinda plain an' simple, don't ya think? Y'all have a nice day.
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i have always liked this plain speak version of the 10 commandments. there are so many people opposed to a public display of the commandments even tho our countrys founders ALL subscribed to the belief that they embodied the basics of morality and decency, what a civil society needed
(1) Just one God
(2) Put nothin' before God
(3) Watch yer mouth
(4) Git yourself to Sunday meetin'
(5) Honor yer Ma & Pa
(6) No killin'
(7) No foolin' around with another fellow's gal
(8) Don't take what ain't yers
(9) No tellin' tales or gossipin'
(10) Don't be hankerin' for yer buddy's stuff
Now that's kinda plain an' simple, don't ya think? Y'all have a nice day.
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i have always liked this plain speak version of the 10 commandments. there are so many people opposed to a public display of the commandments even tho our countrys founders ALL subscribed to the belief that they embodied the basics of morality and decency, what a civil society needed
Monday, October 5, 2015
Cancer Or Not?
on my last visit to the doctors i was told i should take that 3 week course of radiation 'just in case'/ they said i looked to be cancer free after the surgery, all went well and everything was as expected, but 'just in case' i should take the radiation treatments.
i declined.
that did not sit well---they were, well, kind of shocked i was not going to go ahead and just do what they said was protocol. i thanked them, i was grateful, i was glad i went ahead with the surgery to get rid of the tumor and it was sucessful, but i have no interest in taking in radiation into my body to kill and or alter cells,
'just in case'. i can just as well take extra cannabis oil caps for 'just in case'. which is what i am doing.
that is my treatment.
it can be hard to go against standard medical theory and treatment. but i read enough of using radiation to fight cancer, and looked at both sides positions. in my gut i knew it was not right for me. for better or worse i have to decline and find my own way thru the cancer cure labyrinth. oh, i forgot, you cant legally say anything cured your cancer except for the standard surgery-chemo-radiation treatments. otherwise you are called a quack and dangerous, oh well....................
getting better every day here home on the range. still somewhat tired and a bit sore here and there but doing much better. than the Good Lord for blessings and answered prayers.
i declined.
that did not sit well---they were, well, kind of shocked i was not going to go ahead and just do what they said was protocol. i thanked them, i was grateful, i was glad i went ahead with the surgery to get rid of the tumor and it was sucessful, but i have no interest in taking in radiation into my body to kill and or alter cells,
'just in case'. i can just as well take extra cannabis oil caps for 'just in case'. which is what i am doing.
that is my treatment.
it can be hard to go against standard medical theory and treatment. but i read enough of using radiation to fight cancer, and looked at both sides positions. in my gut i knew it was not right for me. for better or worse i have to decline and find my own way thru the cancer cure labyrinth. oh, i forgot, you cant legally say anything cured your cancer except for the standard surgery-chemo-radiation treatments. otherwise you are called a quack and dangerous, oh well....................
getting better every day here home on the range. still somewhat tired and a bit sore here and there but doing much better. than the Good Lord for blessings and answered prayers.
Thursday, September 24, 2015
Recovery Thoughts
i feel like i am still playing catch up. tho each day is a little better, i feel like i cant get enough sleep. it is still a bit uncomfortable trying to find a position to sleep in, and when i roll over to my favorite position (laying on right side) by incisions protest and wake me up reminding me that is not the happy place. but that is also getting a bit easier.
i look at my scars that are not as bad as i feared, i put cannabis coconut oil on and that helps alot with the pain and soreness in my breast. have to take some extra strength tylenol now and then and for awhile was still taking one and a half pain pill at bed time to take the edge off but last night i did not need it, so i am getting better.
tomorrow is back to surgeon for post check up, but i cancelled the radiation and oncologist guys. just dont want to do it. dont want the radiation or the drugs---gonna finish this by myself. i dont get a good feeling about the radiation or drugs so, going to follow my gut instinct. already got a call back asking why???? lol. cause id di some research and found that the standard treatments are not as safe as presented, it is just the standard treatment and who are YOU to question !
i wish everyone well who is undergoing such treatments, but i am not comfortable about it. so i politely decline, thank you. just gonna check to make sure my incisions are healing properly--and they look to be so---after that i will take a different path to healing my body.
i have been examining all my actions and decisions and what i have been thru in this breast cancer thingy-----i had decided to go ahead with the surgery thinking it was a smart thing to do. but now i am not so sure after 3 weeks of taking cannabis, the 3rd week at the higher cancer killing dose, the tumor DID shrink from 11mm to 8mm. that is a great sign. so i have decided that if this thing happens again i will not do the surgery. im not going thru all that again, as nice as the surgeon was, and i thought she was great, i am not repeating this adventure. i will treat with the high does of cannabis and take my chances. after all, even with chemo and radiation, you are still taking your chances and hoping for the best.
well--time for my walk--got to keep the knees moving so i dont get stove up.
God bless you all. hang in there.
get food
i look at my scars that are not as bad as i feared, i put cannabis coconut oil on and that helps alot with the pain and soreness in my breast. have to take some extra strength tylenol now and then and for awhile was still taking one and a half pain pill at bed time to take the edge off but last night i did not need it, so i am getting better.
tomorrow is back to surgeon for post check up, but i cancelled the radiation and oncologist guys. just dont want to do it. dont want the radiation or the drugs---gonna finish this by myself. i dont get a good feeling about the radiation or drugs so, going to follow my gut instinct. already got a call back asking why???? lol. cause id di some research and found that the standard treatments are not as safe as presented, it is just the standard treatment and who are YOU to question !
i wish everyone well who is undergoing such treatments, but i am not comfortable about it. so i politely decline, thank you. just gonna check to make sure my incisions are healing properly--and they look to be so---after that i will take a different path to healing my body.
i have been examining all my actions and decisions and what i have been thru in this breast cancer thingy-----i had decided to go ahead with the surgery thinking it was a smart thing to do. but now i am not so sure after 3 weeks of taking cannabis, the 3rd week at the higher cancer killing dose, the tumor DID shrink from 11mm to 8mm. that is a great sign. so i have decided that if this thing happens again i will not do the surgery. im not going thru all that again, as nice as the surgeon was, and i thought she was great, i am not repeating this adventure. i will treat with the high does of cannabis and take my chances. after all, even with chemo and radiation, you are still taking your chances and hoping for the best.
well--time for my walk--got to keep the knees moving so i dont get stove up.
God bless you all. hang in there.
get food
Friday, September 18, 2015
Best News - repeat
the best news i got is that my pathology report came back negative. no cancer cells in lymph nodes, im clear.
the tuor shrunk from 11 to 8mm in the 3 weeks from diagnosis to surgery. they say they dont know why--but i was taking upper dose of cannabis paste to help fight the cancer. tumors dont shrink on their own............
so that tells me it was working and if i had been avle to take the full 90 day cannabis cancer treatment i believe it would have been even better.
so instead of having to cut out a chunk the size of a fist they only had to cut an amount the size of a walnut. less scars--less tissue destruction.
i am probably repeating myself, and if so, i apologize. i am still thrilled about the good report. thanks to the good Lord for prayers answered.
they want me to take 3 weeks of radiation which they say will reduce possibility of cancer returning to 20%, without it it would be 30%.
im taking the cannabis it is far safer than the radiation. for me, in my opinion.....no question.
the tuor shrunk from 11 to 8mm in the 3 weeks from diagnosis to surgery. they say they dont know why--but i was taking upper dose of cannabis paste to help fight the cancer. tumors dont shrink on their own............
so that tells me it was working and if i had been avle to take the full 90 day cannabis cancer treatment i believe it would have been even better.
so instead of having to cut out a chunk the size of a fist they only had to cut an amount the size of a walnut. less scars--less tissue destruction.
i am probably repeating myself, and if so, i apologize. i am still thrilled about the good report. thanks to the good Lord for prayers answered.
they want me to take 3 weeks of radiation which they say will reduce possibility of cancer returning to 20%, without it it would be 30%.
im taking the cannabis it is far safer than the radiation. for me, in my opinion.....no question.
Fatigue
i have been trying to catch up on sleep. it is not easy finding a comfortable position considering i usually sleep on myright side and muy right breast is definitly not happy with all the stitches. so i flip and flop around trying to get something close to my sleep position. whihc is mostly on my right side and on my stomach.
every time i half alseep roll into that posstion it is like YOW CRAP and i quickly roll to a different postion.
so i dont feel like i get alot of sleep lately, but it is getting better. then there are the disaaster pups---my 2 6month old aussie pups that turn every place they go into a disaster uless you have a tight hand on them. lately, as you can imagine, i have not had a tight hand on anything.
the pups sleep until around 5am and want to go out and pee and then play Destructo End Of The World. i have a doggie door that they are very good at using so the problem is they get tired of destrpying everything outside so they come back insode the doggie door and decide to plag tag team wrestling or something similar in the hallway, living room, kitchen and charge from room to room leaping over tables and chairs. they run in and out and bring in sticks and rocks and logs and whole trees--well--not really whole trees but i bet if they put their mind to it they could. they sure bring in everything esle like gophers they catch, birds, and what all.
so they wake me up around 5;30am and i get up, , trick them into going outside by tossing a couple doggy cookies on the deck then i close and lock the wood door behind them so i can go back to sleep for a bit longer. im mean.
so when i get up they are having their morning nap sleeping so sweetly on the chairs on the deck and i have this twisted desire to wake them up and make them play and run around.
then i try to take a na after lunch if i can, sometimes it is just sitting quiet and listening to a book, but i am often really ready for some kind of sleep, so i have to lock the destruct-o dogs outside again for a little while. oh dont worry about them, they have lots of food and water, a dog house, a shady cool spot under the porch and even a kiddie pool (2 inches of water) to knock each other into. that seems to be a game of theirs, they try to body slam each other into the pool. they dont like being squirted wqith a hose but they dont mind being in the rain at all and usually run and play in the mud and puddles with ecstatic joy.
i am tired.
every time i half alseep roll into that posstion it is like YOW CRAP and i quickly roll to a different postion.
so i dont feel like i get alot of sleep lately, but it is getting better. then there are the disaaster pups---my 2 6month old aussie pups that turn every place they go into a disaster uless you have a tight hand on them. lately, as you can imagine, i have not had a tight hand on anything.
the pups sleep until around 5am and want to go out and pee and then play Destructo End Of The World. i have a doggie door that they are very good at using so the problem is they get tired of destrpying everything outside so they come back insode the doggie door and decide to plag tag team wrestling or something similar in the hallway, living room, kitchen and charge from room to room leaping over tables and chairs. they run in and out and bring in sticks and rocks and logs and whole trees--well--not really whole trees but i bet if they put their mind to it they could. they sure bring in everything esle like gophers they catch, birds, and what all.
so they wake me up around 5;30am and i get up, , trick them into going outside by tossing a couple doggy cookies on the deck then i close and lock the wood door behind them so i can go back to sleep for a bit longer. im mean.
so when i get up they are having their morning nap sleeping so sweetly on the chairs on the deck and i have this twisted desire to wake them up and make them play and run around.
then i try to take a na after lunch if i can, sometimes it is just sitting quiet and listening to a book, but i am often really ready for some kind of sleep, so i have to lock the destruct-o dogs outside again for a little while. oh dont worry about them, they have lots of food and water, a dog house, a shady cool spot under the porch and even a kiddie pool (2 inches of water) to knock each other into. that seems to be a game of theirs, they try to body slam each other into the pool. they dont like being squirted wqith a hose but they dont mind being in the rain at all and usually run and play in the mud and puddles with ecstatic joy.
i am tired.
Monday, September 14, 2015
Scars
i got a good look at my scars today.
not as bad as i feared, i can live with them.
got as decent nights sleep, it has been hard finding a position comfortable for sleep, i keep trying to adjust myself cause i cant sleep on my stomach or right side, but last night, i got some decent sleep.
i stopped the pain pills on day 3 and replaced them with 2 cannabis paste capsules every 4-5 hrs. more or less and that has worked very well--works as good as the hydroco something they gave me without making me stupified. well, if i took 3 cannabis pills it would have put me to sleep, but i felt like 2 was enough to counter the pain.
so this morning if got a good hot shower ad then took off the bandages. i have a long cut top right of my breast near my arm and one the length of my nipple. the surgeon definitely did NOT take out as much tissue around the tumor as she said she needed to, the size of a lemon or fist. inb post p the nurse said the surgeon took out the size of a walnut so my guestimate is that the cannabis past helped it to shrink. but i will check tht out when i see her again on the 25th. why take out less if the tumor was the same size as the beginning when she told me she had to cut out a ection the size of her fist?
anyway--all i need to know is what about my lymphs? did the cancer spread there? once i find that out i will feel better.
thanks to all who have been praying and wishing me good things, i surely appreciate it. God has me in his hands ....
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not as bad as i feared, i can live with them.
got as decent nights sleep, it has been hard finding a position comfortable for sleep, i keep trying to adjust myself cause i cant sleep on my stomach or right side, but last night, i got some decent sleep.
i stopped the pain pills on day 3 and replaced them with 2 cannabis paste capsules every 4-5 hrs. more or less and that has worked very well--works as good as the hydroco something they gave me without making me stupified. well, if i took 3 cannabis pills it would have put me to sleep, but i felt like 2 was enough to counter the pain.
so this morning if got a good hot shower ad then took off the bandages. i have a long cut top right of my breast near my arm and one the length of my nipple. the surgeon definitely did NOT take out as much tissue around the tumor as she said she needed to, the size of a lemon or fist. inb post p the nurse said the surgeon took out the size of a walnut so my guestimate is that the cannabis past helped it to shrink. but i will check tht out when i see her again on the 25th. why take out less if the tumor was the same size as the beginning when she told me she had to cut out a ection the size of her fist?
anyway--all i need to know is what about my lymphs? did the cancer spread there? once i find that out i will feel better.
thanks to all who have been praying and wishing me good things, i surely appreciate it. God has me in his hands ....
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Saturday, September 12, 2015
i survived
well, i survived my breast surgery. it was not fun. in fact it was so un-fun that it was terrible, but it is over and i am home. got home later on the 10th, took a pain pill ad crawled into my own bed with my own pillows and gave thanks to God for getting me there and carrying me through the whole ordeal.
first theng they inserted a metal tube thing in my brest about on top of the tumor in order to insert a wire to mark the site for the surgeon. that hurt but i got thru it. then they got the bright idea to insert a needle into my nipple and inject radiaoactive particles into my lyph system to see where it traveled and to help surgeon to find lymph nodes to tke them out.
THAT freaking HURT like crap. i hollared and told the dr to stop but he ignored me. im sure he has heard it all from all the ladies he has stabbed. he was very calm throughout and i guess that it was good someone was. but that freaking hurt going in and burned and i cried and cried and held on to a nice nurse who wrapped her arms around me and let me cry and cried with me.
then they had to take pictures of me with the breast stabbed with this fricken long wre thta stuck up, had to prop the breast up here, turn there tht was not fun but i got thru it. then i had to wait and hour and go to radiation where they did some gamma pictures i guess the are called. then off to pre-op and sit for awhile found out they could take me earlier than 1230 and i was all for that casue i was sick and tired of it all and hurting nad wanted to get the heck out of there.
surgery then post op.
how are you feeling?
like crap. i hurt.
how much do you hurt? rate it 1-10
im an 8. ive given birth naturally and i call that a 10, right now i am at least an 8. i need something.
they put something in my iv and later asked how i was.
o, i am a 7. i stil need something. get me to a 5 and i can deal with it as i live with a 3-4 daily pain level.
they ave me a couple different things and i rested and snoozed for about an hour then tarted to wake up and feel a bit stronger and said i wanted to go home. that was all i cold think about--getting home.
if i got home id be safe.
if i got home i could deal with my pain better
if i got home i could really rest.
if i got home they could not poke or jab me anymore.
here is the deal----
prior to surgery i was told they hd to remve a chunk the size of a lemon to get tumor nd surrounding area for clean margins.
they found they actually only had to take a section the size of a walnut.
THAT is a big difference. i am convinced it had shruk down from the cannabis paste / oil and tuff i had been taking,
they did not say so, they did not want to talk aobut alternative treatments or that i was taking some cannabis. they did not mention the tumor had shrunk---BUT they found they only had to take a smaller part.
id say that was progress. a step in the right direction.
today o stopped the pain pills and went back on the cannabis caps.
2 of them seem to do as good as one pain pill without feeling groggy. so today i put the pain pills away and will just do the cannabis. i am doing better and even had a good nap today.
i had big bandages and a stretchy tube top sot of thing with a velcro front. i slipped in my medical magnet pads and that YES does hep reduce the pain a good bit.
had a nice dinner and a glass of wine, gonna take some cannabis pills and go to bed for a better nights rest.
i cab not Prove the cannabis paste shrunk the tumor. all i know is that come surgery time they found it was smaller than 3 weeks ago when i was diagnosed and mammogram and sonograms taken.
i wonder if i had a few more weeks would it have shrunk completely ? i do not know.
my breast is sore and under my arm where they cut out some lymphs nodes but i am better today and tomorrow i will be even better.
my throat was a bit irritated but i guess that was from the tube they inserted. i felt some uncomfortable tightness there and took some sips of the Spaz-ez i make for cramps and spasms and that too care of it just fine.
the very odd this is that my stomach muscles feels like i have done 100 sit ups. and i dont get that--how the heck did THIS feeling come from???
but i am home. i go back for post op on sept 25 and they will wnt to set a radiation schedule. i doubt i will do that part. really---i have had Enough of this stuff...................
many thanks and blessings for all those who have prayed for me and kept me in their thoughts and sent good wishes. YES it made a difference. thank you.
tomorrow i get to take the bandages off to see what all i got left in the boob department. i will let you know......
first theng they inserted a metal tube thing in my brest about on top of the tumor in order to insert a wire to mark the site for the surgeon. that hurt but i got thru it. then they got the bright idea to insert a needle into my nipple and inject radiaoactive particles into my lyph system to see where it traveled and to help surgeon to find lymph nodes to tke them out.
THAT freaking HURT like crap. i hollared and told the dr to stop but he ignored me. im sure he has heard it all from all the ladies he has stabbed. he was very calm throughout and i guess that it was good someone was. but that freaking hurt going in and burned and i cried and cried and held on to a nice nurse who wrapped her arms around me and let me cry and cried with me.
then they had to take pictures of me with the breast stabbed with this fricken long wre thta stuck up, had to prop the breast up here, turn there tht was not fun but i got thru it. then i had to wait and hour and go to radiation where they did some gamma pictures i guess the are called. then off to pre-op and sit for awhile found out they could take me earlier than 1230 and i was all for that casue i was sick and tired of it all and hurting nad wanted to get the heck out of there.
surgery then post op.
how are you feeling?
like crap. i hurt.
how much do you hurt? rate it 1-10
im an 8. ive given birth naturally and i call that a 10, right now i am at least an 8. i need something.
they put something in my iv and later asked how i was.
o, i am a 7. i stil need something. get me to a 5 and i can deal with it as i live with a 3-4 daily pain level.
they ave me a couple different things and i rested and snoozed for about an hour then tarted to wake up and feel a bit stronger and said i wanted to go home. that was all i cold think about--getting home.
if i got home id be safe.
if i got home i could deal with my pain better
if i got home i could really rest.
if i got home they could not poke or jab me anymore.
here is the deal----
prior to surgery i was told they hd to remve a chunk the size of a lemon to get tumor nd surrounding area for clean margins.
they found they actually only had to take a section the size of a walnut.
THAT is a big difference. i am convinced it had shruk down from the cannabis paste / oil and tuff i had been taking,
they did not say so, they did not want to talk aobut alternative treatments or that i was taking some cannabis. they did not mention the tumor had shrunk---BUT they found they only had to take a smaller part.
id say that was progress. a step in the right direction.
today o stopped the pain pills and went back on the cannabis caps.
2 of them seem to do as good as one pain pill without feeling groggy. so today i put the pain pills away and will just do the cannabis. i am doing better and even had a good nap today.
i had big bandages and a stretchy tube top sot of thing with a velcro front. i slipped in my medical magnet pads and that YES does hep reduce the pain a good bit.
had a nice dinner and a glass of wine, gonna take some cannabis pills and go to bed for a better nights rest.
i cab not Prove the cannabis paste shrunk the tumor. all i know is that come surgery time they found it was smaller than 3 weeks ago when i was diagnosed and mammogram and sonograms taken.
i wonder if i had a few more weeks would it have shrunk completely ? i do not know.
my breast is sore and under my arm where they cut out some lymphs nodes but i am better today and tomorrow i will be even better.
my throat was a bit irritated but i guess that was from the tube they inserted. i felt some uncomfortable tightness there and took some sips of the Spaz-ez i make for cramps and spasms and that too care of it just fine.
the very odd this is that my stomach muscles feels like i have done 100 sit ups. and i dont get that--how the heck did THIS feeling come from???
but i am home. i go back for post op on sept 25 and they will wnt to set a radiation schedule. i doubt i will do that part. really---i have had Enough of this stuff...................
many thanks and blessings for all those who have prayed for me and kept me in their thoughts and sent good wishes. YES it made a difference. thank you.
tomorrow i get to take the bandages off to see what all i got left in the boob department. i will let you know......
Tuesday, September 8, 2015
getting ready for surgery
as i get closer each day to my surgery i find it is necessary for me to remember why i need it. see, i have no pain where the tumor is, i cant even feel it really except where it is tender where they did the biopsy. i dont feel sick. but i got to go tot he hospital and let the do al sort of other tests and then surgery.
i dont like hospitals.
i sure dont like the idea of some stranger cutting on me.
maybe i am being a crybaby, but i dont like the idea and i get little moments of panic. so i try to calm myself by first pray9ing, asking God to get rid of the fear and to tell myself over and ver--
i have breast cancer. i got to get it out. they are going to cut it out for me.
so that is what i do over and over. kinda silly i know but it helps.. on sep 25th i have to go back for post op and see the oncologist
and a radiation person about radiation treatment. i am debating.
but who knows what wil happen. as much as i dont like the ideas of this surgery, inside i feel it is necessary, that i have to do this. it is a certan feeling so perhaps it is God letting me know it is the right thing to do. i do not have the feeling about radiation, tho. whihc is why i am holding back.
i am up to about 8 grams of the cannabis paste--that is 8 capsules with about one gram each. i am working up to 9.
if i eat a good meal and then take the 3 caps i have no real afects, but if i forget to eat or only eat a little and take the caps, i am incredibly tired and want to go to bed. 2 caps dont seem to bother me, the 3 i need to be careful about
after breakfast i take 3, then during the day i will take another 2 then bedtime i take 3. i hve found if i take 3 during mid dya i am draggy and want to go lay down.
been getting up to 20 apricot kernals twice a dya. sometimes i forget but i am usually pretty close.
i have forgotten the lypsomal vit C. well, it is probably latent as i hate the tste and smell..grape juice covers it the best but stil, its gg potency is strong. i was to be up to 9T a day. hard to belive tht it gets too difficult to take only 9T but it gags me. ugh, smells ike rotten wet cardboard. ick.
essiac tea--crap, i feel off that wagon too but still working on it.
the pathology report will tell me if it has spread to my lymphs, that i am hoping has not happened and i am hoping when i get the sonogram before the surgery (they have to insert some wire thing) that the tumor has shrunk some----.
only time will tell, eh
well, i guess i will be back after the surgery and let you know how it is all going.
take care and God bless
i dont like hospitals.
i sure dont like the idea of some stranger cutting on me.
maybe i am being a crybaby, but i dont like the idea and i get little moments of panic. so i try to calm myself by first pray9ing, asking God to get rid of the fear and to tell myself over and ver--
i have breast cancer. i got to get it out. they are going to cut it out for me.
so that is what i do over and over. kinda silly i know but it helps.. on sep 25th i have to go back for post op and see the oncologist
and a radiation person about radiation treatment. i am debating.
but who knows what wil happen. as much as i dont like the ideas of this surgery, inside i feel it is necessary, that i have to do this. it is a certan feeling so perhaps it is God letting me know it is the right thing to do. i do not have the feeling about radiation, tho. whihc is why i am holding back.
i am up to about 8 grams of the cannabis paste--that is 8 capsules with about one gram each. i am working up to 9.
if i eat a good meal and then take the 3 caps i have no real afects, but if i forget to eat or only eat a little and take the caps, i am incredibly tired and want to go to bed. 2 caps dont seem to bother me, the 3 i need to be careful about
after breakfast i take 3, then during the day i will take another 2 then bedtime i take 3. i hve found if i take 3 during mid dya i am draggy and want to go lay down.
been getting up to 20 apricot kernals twice a dya. sometimes i forget but i am usually pretty close.
i have forgotten the lypsomal vit C. well, it is probably latent as i hate the tste and smell..grape juice covers it the best but stil, its gg potency is strong. i was to be up to 9T a day. hard to belive tht it gets too difficult to take only 9T but it gags me. ugh, smells ike rotten wet cardboard. ick.
essiac tea--crap, i feel off that wagon too but still working on it.
the pathology report will tell me if it has spread to my lymphs, that i am hoping has not happened and i am hoping when i get the sonogram before the surgery (they have to insert some wire thing) that the tumor has shrunk some----.
only time will tell, eh
well, i guess i will be back after the surgery and let you know how it is all going.
take care and God bless
Wednesday, September 2, 2015
More Cancer Crap
there is a stunning amount of info about cancer--all types of cancers and all types of treatments. and there is a stunning amount of people caught up in this monster. and i am seeing that the monster cancer industry is a monster of its own.
i have a count down to my surgery and i have been trying to educate myself as much as posible as what is going to happen. i am not liking any of this--lol.
i will hve a conference call on the 8th to tell me what to do and not do before the surgery. got to leave on the 9th to go to colorado springs to check in to the guest house to be ready at the butt craqck of dawn for tests before surgery on the 10th.
i have been working lining up people to come stay at my place to take care of the dogs, chickens, gardens and when i am back to come hep me pick and can cause i figure i wont be up for much of it and this surgery is smack dab in the midst of canning season and harvest time..
i got a schedule on what they are gonna do to me before surgery, tests, biopsy's needle things, specimen things, injections--WTF---they better not expect me to stay awake and be all friendly if they are gonna do scary crap things to me. but i know i will be expected to be a good and well behaved patient while they push and stick and shove and cut--keep my mouth shut, dont make wves----
oh well----i aint promising anything.
and now i found out about this thing called lymphedema you can get after this surgery stuff swelling and nasty stuff uner the arm and with the arm--oh my gosh that doesnt sound good. sigh-----
well, i had to make another batch of cannabis oil paste capsules. i think i got the hand of it, it is a bit messy but i can make 24 in about 15 min i think. i have been loading up so i have all i need for a whole month after surgery.
i got a case packed up, dragged out a small cooler to load up some stuff as i will be there 2 days. just going thru things and trying to get physically ready. i hope i am mentally ready come time.
so i am still taking the cannabis pate/oil--up to 8-9gms a day. i know the oil is super concentrated and you work up to one gram a day for 60 days the paste is a little different, and i have worked up to 8-9grams. now, i know--the traditional idea of the pase is to take 2.5 grams--but because i have not found as many reports on dosage as all the work done on the oil, i am going by what makes sense to me. if i space out 2 caps 4 times a day i dont get any funky feelings. ues, you relly CAN take this and not get stoned. so if you have been interested in cannabis as cancer treatments, but have ben concerned about the high feeling pot smokers are after, dont worry you start off with very small amont and slowly build up until you can handle the full dose and function s usual.
on days when i upped my dosage i got really sleepy and just went to bed feeling fine when i woke up
anyway--i am still plugging along, still learning, researching and trying things
i hope you are too.
i have a count down to my surgery and i have been trying to educate myself as much as posible as what is going to happen. i am not liking any of this--lol.
i will hve a conference call on the 8th to tell me what to do and not do before the surgery. got to leave on the 9th to go to colorado springs to check in to the guest house to be ready at the butt craqck of dawn for tests before surgery on the 10th.
i have been working lining up people to come stay at my place to take care of the dogs, chickens, gardens and when i am back to come hep me pick and can cause i figure i wont be up for much of it and this surgery is smack dab in the midst of canning season and harvest time..
i got a schedule on what they are gonna do to me before surgery, tests, biopsy's needle things, specimen things, injections--WTF---they better not expect me to stay awake and be all friendly if they are gonna do scary crap things to me. but i know i will be expected to be a good and well behaved patient while they push and stick and shove and cut--keep my mouth shut, dont make wves----
oh well----i aint promising anything.
and now i found out about this thing called lymphedema you can get after this surgery stuff swelling and nasty stuff uner the arm and with the arm--oh my gosh that doesnt sound good. sigh-----
well, i had to make another batch of cannabis oil paste capsules. i think i got the hand of it, it is a bit messy but i can make 24 in about 15 min i think. i have been loading up so i have all i need for a whole month after surgery.
i got a case packed up, dragged out a small cooler to load up some stuff as i will be there 2 days. just going thru things and trying to get physically ready. i hope i am mentally ready come time.
so i am still taking the cannabis pate/oil--up to 8-9gms a day. i know the oil is super concentrated and you work up to one gram a day for 60 days the paste is a little different, and i have worked up to 8-9grams. now, i know--the traditional idea of the pase is to take 2.5 grams--but because i have not found as many reports on dosage as all the work done on the oil, i am going by what makes sense to me. if i space out 2 caps 4 times a day i dont get any funky feelings. ues, you relly CAN take this and not get stoned. so if you have been interested in cannabis as cancer treatments, but have ben concerned about the high feeling pot smokers are after, dont worry you start off with very small amont and slowly build up until you can handle the full dose and function s usual.
on days when i upped my dosage i got really sleepy and just went to bed feeling fine when i woke up
anyway--i am still plugging along, still learning, researching and trying things
i hope you are too.
Wednesday, August 19, 2015
Fighting Cancer..One Day at a Time
ok----
yesterday i had my pre op exam. apparently before surgery now you have to have a physical exam to make sure you survive it. lol.
i guess i passed. they checked my oxygen levels, i had to walk around the hallways fast about 4 times and check me during and after. did not need ekg as i had one recently and it proved without a doubt i still had a heart in there somewhere beating awy more or less normally.
i got weighed and found out i lost 7 lbs. which is terrific as i will never miss it and need to lose some more. if i agreed to chemo and radiation i bet that would be no problem but i am being stubborn.
surgery is sept 10. i have a post op exam on the 25 where i am supposed to be cheeked by the surgeon, the oncologist and the radiation oncologist. . it will be a long ass day as the appointments are in colorado springs which is bout a 2 hr drive away. like i said, long ass day.
i have to say the penrose st francis / rocky mnt cancer center center is outstanding. if i got to have cancer that is the place to go. did i mention earlier that they have cookies? the good ones, pepperidge farms milanos. i would do just about anything for milanos. i rarely buy them as they are too addicting. and mango licorice. sounds weird but daaMn, that stuff is good. if you ever have to stop smoking get yourself about 20 bags of the mango licorice. BIG help.
anyway--
i ams till trying to research and learn and study about this breast cancer crap. i am not pleased to be having it and am determined to kill it. i told a family member that it is like entering a war. you have to kill it before it kills you.
i have learned people dont like to talk about cancer / death / surgery as tho it is too real, too painful. it is scary. i wonder if it has been made to be more scary than it really is?
i keep reading about the big cancer industry that has sprung up, billions of dollars for all involved. except the poor sob who has the cancer.
i do not believe in poisoning with chemo or killing with radiation, why do that to an alreay sick and weakened body in hopes of killing the cancer before you kill the body? i look at my friend pete, 55 yrs old with a cancer that started near his kidney and now has spread. he had chemo and radiation a few times and the tumor once shrank a bunch and now it has stopped and the cancer has spread.
they made him sicker. he has lost over 60 lbs and is a shadow of himself. he lives on morphine and is basically waiting to die. he has given up.
cancer is bad enough but adding chemo and rads, well, it is not a path i want to go down. and i know it makes me sound stupid--how dare i not trust the medical community and do what they say?> who am i to question?
well----me. it is a historical fact that the medical community thru the centuries always considered itself the most educated, modern and scientific even while doing things like apply leeches to purge out bad blood giving arsenic for a cure and draining a sick patient and weakening them. that so many survived over the centuries is an example of human will to survive no matter what dammit.
there is too much evidence that chemo is a flat out poison and makes people worse. and enough to show radiation is not a great idea to poison the cancerous and healthy cells and cause a die off, hoping to not have too much a of a die off. radiation is sort of like 'kill 'em all and let God sort 'em out' mentality. if you survive 5 yrs after treatment you are considered 'cured' even if you die the next day so you are added to the official 'cured' stats. something off about that.
if people choose this path, i wish them all the best and a speedy recovery and 100% cure. but i am convinced there are other tool that are just as if not more successful and do not harm the body during the healing process. there are waay too many people killing cancer and being cured to dismiss everything beside the standard treatments approved by the AMA.
i am drawing the line on coffee enemas tho. there are far better things to do with a good cup of coffee than put it where the sun dont shine. but----it is something some folk believe helps them, doesnt seem to cause damage and they ue it in conjunction with other treatments to fight their cancer.
we ARE in a war. a war to kill cancer. there are many different tools to fight this war and some tools work better for some folk than others. you have to find your individual tool that work for you and make you feel good and strong in your battles.
i am using 2oz essiac tea
20 B17 apricot kernals
9T lipsomal vit C
cannabis oil 2.5 gms paste 2x a day
moscow mules
--just kidding. everyone knows a moscow mule does nothing to cure cancer but it sure does make you feel better about having it.
moscow mule recipe:
large glass
jigger of vodka
ginger beer
lime juice
lots of ice
damn good drink. if you cant find ginger beer try ginger ale, tho it will not be as robust in flavor, but it is do-able. i recently made some ginger extract to use instead of ginger ale. i prefer the ginger beer by far, you can substitute if you need to, but these things are addicting and sure do make the end of the day go smooth sitting on the porch watching the hummingbirds dive bomb each other and the puppies run around causing havoc while you rest comfortably on the porch swing and let the world around you go mad----- have another moscow mule and you wont care that the world is crashing and burning economically around you. hope you prepared somewhat by the way, things aint looking good for the next 12-16 months.
sheeeesh. what a time to have cancer.
sorry, i dont mean to whine, but there is so much to do this fall and im having surgery to cut 1/3 of my breast off plus some lymphs and have to do 4-6 wks recovery right in the beginning of canning and harvest time.
i dont know how i am going to deal with all this
but time stops for no one so i gots to keep on keeping on.
every once in a while i stop and have a pity party and have a good cry. you have to or you explode. but you cant stay there--you cant let yourself stay in some pit of gloomy self pity cause it is deadly. that is sort of an emotional form of cancer i think. you have to fight that too.
seems like about everything these days is a batle one way or another.
well, today is green bean day--first round of pickings. got to do it while i can. got to pick while i can, get as much done before surgery as possible,
fresh green beans! man, thats some good stuff.
got the dehydrator going to finish up the zukes for this winter, when that is done i will dry todays green beans i will can some later on, today i will be lazy and just dry them. then i got to make some yogurt--so i got thing to do. got to strain and bottle some tinctures that are ready too--so i better get myself going.
i wish you all the best, i wish you the good Lords blessing and protection and friendship.
yesterday i had my pre op exam. apparently before surgery now you have to have a physical exam to make sure you survive it. lol.
i guess i passed. they checked my oxygen levels, i had to walk around the hallways fast about 4 times and check me during and after. did not need ekg as i had one recently and it proved without a doubt i still had a heart in there somewhere beating awy more or less normally.
i got weighed and found out i lost 7 lbs. which is terrific as i will never miss it and need to lose some more. if i agreed to chemo and radiation i bet that would be no problem but i am being stubborn.
surgery is sept 10. i have a post op exam on the 25 where i am supposed to be cheeked by the surgeon, the oncologist and the radiation oncologist. . it will be a long ass day as the appointments are in colorado springs which is bout a 2 hr drive away. like i said, long ass day.
i have to say the penrose st francis / rocky mnt cancer center center is outstanding. if i got to have cancer that is the place to go. did i mention earlier that they have cookies? the good ones, pepperidge farms milanos. i would do just about anything for milanos. i rarely buy them as they are too addicting. and mango licorice. sounds weird but daaMn, that stuff is good. if you ever have to stop smoking get yourself about 20 bags of the mango licorice. BIG help.
anyway--
i ams till trying to research and learn and study about this breast cancer crap. i am not pleased to be having it and am determined to kill it. i told a family member that it is like entering a war. you have to kill it before it kills you.
i have learned people dont like to talk about cancer / death / surgery as tho it is too real, too painful. it is scary. i wonder if it has been made to be more scary than it really is?
i keep reading about the big cancer industry that has sprung up, billions of dollars for all involved. except the poor sob who has the cancer.
i do not believe in poisoning with chemo or killing with radiation, why do that to an alreay sick and weakened body in hopes of killing the cancer before you kill the body? i look at my friend pete, 55 yrs old with a cancer that started near his kidney and now has spread. he had chemo and radiation a few times and the tumor once shrank a bunch and now it has stopped and the cancer has spread.
they made him sicker. he has lost over 60 lbs and is a shadow of himself. he lives on morphine and is basically waiting to die. he has given up.
cancer is bad enough but adding chemo and rads, well, it is not a path i want to go down. and i know it makes me sound stupid--how dare i not trust the medical community and do what they say?> who am i to question?
well----me. it is a historical fact that the medical community thru the centuries always considered itself the most educated, modern and scientific even while doing things like apply leeches to purge out bad blood giving arsenic for a cure and draining a sick patient and weakening them. that so many survived over the centuries is an example of human will to survive no matter what dammit.
there is too much evidence that chemo is a flat out poison and makes people worse. and enough to show radiation is not a great idea to poison the cancerous and healthy cells and cause a die off, hoping to not have too much a of a die off. radiation is sort of like 'kill 'em all and let God sort 'em out' mentality. if you survive 5 yrs after treatment you are considered 'cured' even if you die the next day so you are added to the official 'cured' stats. something off about that.
if people choose this path, i wish them all the best and a speedy recovery and 100% cure. but i am convinced there are other tool that are just as if not more successful and do not harm the body during the healing process. there are waay too many people killing cancer and being cured to dismiss everything beside the standard treatments approved by the AMA.
i am drawing the line on coffee enemas tho. there are far better things to do with a good cup of coffee than put it where the sun dont shine. but----it is something some folk believe helps them, doesnt seem to cause damage and they ue it in conjunction with other treatments to fight their cancer.
we ARE in a war. a war to kill cancer. there are many different tools to fight this war and some tools work better for some folk than others. you have to find your individual tool that work for you and make you feel good and strong in your battles.
i am using 2oz essiac tea
20 B17 apricot kernals
9T lipsomal vit C
cannabis oil 2.5 gms paste 2x a day
moscow mules
--just kidding. everyone knows a moscow mule does nothing to cure cancer but it sure does make you feel better about having it.
moscow mule recipe:
large glass
jigger of vodka
ginger beer
lime juice
lots of ice
damn good drink. if you cant find ginger beer try ginger ale, tho it will not be as robust in flavor, but it is do-able. i recently made some ginger extract to use instead of ginger ale. i prefer the ginger beer by far, you can substitute if you need to, but these things are addicting and sure do make the end of the day go smooth sitting on the porch watching the hummingbirds dive bomb each other and the puppies run around causing havoc while you rest comfortably on the porch swing and let the world around you go mad----- have another moscow mule and you wont care that the world is crashing and burning economically around you. hope you prepared somewhat by the way, things aint looking good for the next 12-16 months.
sheeeesh. what a time to have cancer.
sorry, i dont mean to whine, but there is so much to do this fall and im having surgery to cut 1/3 of my breast off plus some lymphs and have to do 4-6 wks recovery right in the beginning of canning and harvest time.
i dont know how i am going to deal with all this
but time stops for no one so i gots to keep on keeping on.
every once in a while i stop and have a pity party and have a good cry. you have to or you explode. but you cant stay there--you cant let yourself stay in some pit of gloomy self pity cause it is deadly. that is sort of an emotional form of cancer i think. you have to fight that too.
seems like about everything these days is a batle one way or another.
well, today is green bean day--first round of pickings. got to do it while i can. got to pick while i can, get as much done before surgery as possible,
fresh green beans! man, thats some good stuff.
got the dehydrator going to finish up the zukes for this winter, when that is done i will dry todays green beans i will can some later on, today i will be lazy and just dry them. then i got to make some yogurt--so i got thing to do. got to strain and bottle some tinctures that are ready too--so i better get myself going.
i wish you all the best, i wish you the good Lords blessing and protection and friendship.
Thursday, August 6, 2015
Cancer Visit
well, i had my big day in the city going to see the oncologist and then the surgeon. it was an interesting long ass day. when i saw the oncologist, a young guy it was obvious that he had not spent one minute on my chart before entering. ok, i get it, maybe he has been real busy. but then he does not seem to have a clue---so he asks me why do i think i am there.
i just looked at him a minute cause i figured it was a stalling measure while his brain gathered itelf--i dutifuloy recited the steps i had taken to discover i had breast cancer.
i asked him some questions, he was kinda vague so i let it go. then i went to the surgeon and she was great, explained everything real well, out front, heres what we got to do sort of thing.
so they want surgery to take out a chunk about the size of a lemon she said. will also sample the lyphs just in case and to make sure they are clear of cancer cells. then 4-6weks recovery and then 3 weeks of radiation. no chemo at this stage.
i asked about her treating people who used alternative treatments and she was not thrilled but said it would be fone for supporting but the core is the surgery and radiation.
for radiation id have to go to the springs nad live there cause i cant go back and forth to the springs every day. there is a guest house attached to the hospital so id stay there while undergoing treatment sometime in november i think.
i dont want to deal with it o i tiold them id put it off until my post op visit.
i dont want radiation.
i have been taking the cannabis paste / oil and am almost up to high dose. it makes me groggy and sleepy until i adjust to the higher dose. heck the surgery is not until 9/10 there is a good
chance that will do a real number on the tumor before the surgery.
a friend is going to have to take me, and they wnat me to spend the night in the guest house then too after the surgery to make sure i am alright. id rather just come home and go to bed, so i will see how that works out.
so, moving forward but next big step is the surgery and the tests done from that to make sure it has not spread.
.
i just looked at him a minute cause i figured it was a stalling measure while his brain gathered itelf--i dutifuloy recited the steps i had taken to discover i had breast cancer.
i asked him some questions, he was kinda vague so i let it go. then i went to the surgeon and she was great, explained everything real well, out front, heres what we got to do sort of thing.
so they want surgery to take out a chunk about the size of a lemon she said. will also sample the lyphs just in case and to make sure they are clear of cancer cells. then 4-6weks recovery and then 3 weeks of radiation. no chemo at this stage.
i asked about her treating people who used alternative treatments and she was not thrilled but said it would be fone for supporting but the core is the surgery and radiation.
for radiation id have to go to the springs nad live there cause i cant go back and forth to the springs every day. there is a guest house attached to the hospital so id stay there while undergoing treatment sometime in november i think.
i dont want to deal with it o i tiold them id put it off until my post op visit.
i dont want radiation.
i have been taking the cannabis paste / oil and am almost up to high dose. it makes me groggy and sleepy until i adjust to the higher dose. heck the surgery is not until 9/10 there is a good
chance that will do a real number on the tumor before the surgery.
a friend is going to have to take me, and they wnat me to spend the night in the guest house then too after the surgery to make sure i am alright. id rather just come home and go to bed, so i will see how that works out.
so, moving forward but next big step is the surgery and the tests done from that to make sure it has not spread.
.
Friday, July 31, 2015
Cannabis Paste #2
i made the first large batch of the cannabis paste. but i did 16 half pints, about a one years treatment taking about 3gms a day.
it was made with 16 oz of dried bud, chopped thru grinder to like a powder. then put 1. 5 ounce in each half pint. added in 2oz of coconit oil and one of vegetable glycerine. put lids on. tight and then dropped them in hot water vat, weighted down and water bathed it all for 10 and a half hours as directed. i kep the temp around 180 as close as possible.
took the little jars out and let them cool. only 2 actually dealed.
now in food canning, that is not a good thing.
usually i would remove the unsealed lids, and wipe the rims clean and then put on new lids and water bath again.
however--that is with high acid food--with this i am not so sure so i will store them in the fridge to be safe. i do not know why the directions do not state to pressure can these jars. it is low acid. i just cheked the PH in one jar = 7
so that is right in the middle.
i wondered about the 10/5 hr @ 180degrees came to be determined but the main web site is down. there is a company n canada selling and sharing info about the paste maybe i can ask them,
to ell to the publie id think youd HAVE to have the product be pressure canned whhc is around 240 degrees. still not too high but how long is needed to decoxilate----*sheeeesh*
it is easier to take the paste, it is easier to make it than the oil and you ge t the whole plant material. i saw the tests done that says you get ALL the carbininoids and thc and are not throwing anything away.
i finally got a postage scale that did grams and was able to measure the daily dose i had been taking. i had been following the advice of taking a dose the size of a pea and then i went from once a dya to 2x then 3x a day. found out i have been taking about 4gm a day. not a bad dose and tho i feel tired i dont feel a buzz. just damn tired and want to lay down znd take a nap.
i will stay on this dose til i feel nothing and then increase again. i sw one site that said 1gm - 2tsp and i measured and that did not come out right.
1/4tsp = 2gm of my stuff-
advice says to take up to 2.4gm. i rounded up to 3gm as it was wasier. but in all i read that is total for 1x a day dose.
gotta try to dig up some more info. there is not a ton out there and the oi devotees seem to feel a bit threatened by the paste peol.e lol--i cant belive i just said that, sounds like a line out of a bad B movie, ha.
anyway---the paste just makes so much more sense. i did see a ab report from one site that really all it said i could tell was that you get more material , more CBDs in paste, so why make the il if the paste is just as good and easier?
oh well. we each have our own preferences. if i feel like the paste is not working i have the option of going to the oil.
i have some research to see if anyone has presure caned the paste for X amount of time to decarb it and make sure it is safly sealed for long term storage.
it was made with 16 oz of dried bud, chopped thru grinder to like a powder. then put 1. 5 ounce in each half pint. added in 2oz of coconit oil and one of vegetable glycerine. put lids on. tight and then dropped them in hot water vat, weighted down and water bathed it all for 10 and a half hours as directed. i kep the temp around 180 as close as possible.
took the little jars out and let them cool. only 2 actually dealed.
now in food canning, that is not a good thing.
usually i would remove the unsealed lids, and wipe the rims clean and then put on new lids and water bath again.
however--that is with high acid food--with this i am not so sure so i will store them in the fridge to be safe. i do not know why the directions do not state to pressure can these jars. it is low acid. i just cheked the PH in one jar = 7
so that is right in the middle.
i wondered about the 10/5 hr @ 180degrees came to be determined but the main web site is down. there is a company n canada selling and sharing info about the paste maybe i can ask them,
to ell to the publie id think youd HAVE to have the product be pressure canned whhc is around 240 degrees. still not too high but how long is needed to decoxilate----*sheeeesh*
it is easier to take the paste, it is easier to make it than the oil and you ge t the whole plant material. i saw the tests done that says you get ALL the carbininoids and thc and are not throwing anything away.
i finally got a postage scale that did grams and was able to measure the daily dose i had been taking. i had been following the advice of taking a dose the size of a pea and then i went from once a dya to 2x then 3x a day. found out i have been taking about 4gm a day. not a bad dose and tho i feel tired i dont feel a buzz. just damn tired and want to lay down znd take a nap.
i will stay on this dose til i feel nothing and then increase again. i sw one site that said 1gm - 2tsp and i measured and that did not come out right.
1/4tsp = 2gm of my stuff-
advice says to take up to 2.4gm. i rounded up to 3gm as it was wasier. but in all i read that is total for 1x a day dose.
gotta try to dig up some more info. there is not a ton out there and the oi devotees seem to feel a bit threatened by the paste peol.e lol--i cant belive i just said that, sounds like a line out of a bad B movie, ha.
anyway---the paste just makes so much more sense. i did see a ab report from one site that really all it said i could tell was that you get more material , more CBDs in paste, so why make the il if the paste is just as good and easier?
oh well. we each have our own preferences. if i feel like the paste is not working i have the option of going to the oil.
i have some research to see if anyone has presure caned the paste for X amount of time to decarb it and make sure it is safly sealed for long term storage.
Tuesday, July 28, 2015
Cannabis Paste
i have been researching the different forms of cannabis used in cancer treatment, and found it is as varied as the people. the majority take the oil, called Rick Simpson Oil - RSO-, hemp oil, cannabis oil, etc, etc-----
Rick Simpson pioneered the concentrated oil for medical treatments. i certai ly am not going to disparage the oil or anything about it., it has a proven track record.
i lean towards the paste form as routed by the company in CO called NewCure and now also in NZ and Canada. there are some amazing testimonials and some really good research docs. there is a place for both the oil and the paste.
i favor the paste because 1) it is easier to make 2) it is safer to make 3) even a half blind person like me can make it with a bit of help and 4) you get the whole plant, nothing is wasted or tossed out. 5) for 1lb plant you get over one years worth of treatment as opposed to getting 4-6 oz from one lb which is a 3 month treatment.
i also find it easy because i am used to canning and water bath and all that, so it is not strange for me to make the paste , a years worth in one swoop. piece of cake.
you will need
one lb dry bud
coconut oil
32 half pint or pint jars, lids and rings
very large pot with lid
tongs, towels, hot pads, etc
take one lb dried herb buds
grind into powder
put one half oz in small canning jar like a half pint
add 2 oz of coconut oil or veg glycerine or olive oil
stir real good to mix up
wipe rim of jar clean, put lid on snug
put in hot water bath
use a very large soup pot with a lid
get water temp up to 180-185
putting all the jars in will lower temp
make sure when all jars in the water level is at least 5 inches OVER top of jars
water must be around 180 degrees F
keep range from 175-185, no higher or lower
keep water level at least 5 inches ABOVE jars
cover pot with lid
monitor temp
keep in pot for 10.5 HOURS
check water level frequently and top off if needed
this is an all day monitoring thing so so start this in the early am
AFTER the 10.5 turn off heat and carefully take out hot jrs,
place on towel on counter
let cool and tops will ping and seal
some folks take jars every so often from the hot water and give them a real good shake to help mix things up
my first batch i tried one jar and used veg glyverine as the add in. when i later opened the jar to test it it seemed very dry to me so i mixed in another ounce of the glycerine to improve texture.
ive seen someone who used this recipe but used 2oz of coconut oil PLUS 2 more ounce of veg glycerine. this would certanly improve the end texture but youd need to remember if you added and increased the amount in eash jar you have to factor that to get your right dose because it would be more than the 2.4 gms dose whohc was based on only 2 oz fat, not 4--see? just keep that in mind.
store in a place away from heat and light, a cupboard or even under a bed
dose starts with the size of a pea twice a day
you work up to taking 2.4 gms split throughout the day
do this for at least 6 months at high dosage
i have started the paste dose and am up to about half the 2.5, im going by feel on this i had to order a scale so i can measure precise. it arrives Thursday, lol.
i take a small pea size in am after food a small one mid day and a larger one at bed.
the mid day dose made me feel draggy and tired, real turnip like. so i stopped the dose for a couple days and just do am/ pm right now. will do this 4 days and add in the mid day dose again.
when the scale comes i want to measure the 2.4 gm because i need to get familiar with the amount so i know what i need to work up to.
ill have the next batch in a couple days and let you know.
i have breast cancer and im gonna kick its ass
Rick Simpson pioneered the concentrated oil for medical treatments. i certai ly am not going to disparage the oil or anything about it., it has a proven track record.
i lean towards the paste form as routed by the company in CO called NewCure and now also in NZ and Canada. there are some amazing testimonials and some really good research docs. there is a place for both the oil and the paste.
i favor the paste because 1) it is easier to make 2) it is safer to make 3) even a half blind person like me can make it with a bit of help and 4) you get the whole plant, nothing is wasted or tossed out. 5) for 1lb plant you get over one years worth of treatment as opposed to getting 4-6 oz from one lb which is a 3 month treatment.
i also find it easy because i am used to canning and water bath and all that, so it is not strange for me to make the paste , a years worth in one swoop. piece of cake.
you will need
one lb dry bud
coconut oil
32 half pint or pint jars, lids and rings
very large pot with lid
tongs, towels, hot pads, etc
take one lb dried herb buds
grind into powder
put one half oz in small canning jar like a half pint
add 2 oz of coconut oil or veg glycerine or olive oil
stir real good to mix up
wipe rim of jar clean, put lid on snug
put in hot water bath
use a very large soup pot with a lid
get water temp up to 180-185
putting all the jars in will lower temp
make sure when all jars in the water level is at least 5 inches OVER top of jars
water must be around 180 degrees F
keep range from 175-185, no higher or lower
keep water level at least 5 inches ABOVE jars
cover pot with lid
monitor temp
keep in pot for 10.5 HOURS
check water level frequently and top off if needed
this is an all day monitoring thing so so start this in the early am
AFTER the 10.5 turn off heat and carefully take out hot jrs,
place on towel on counter
let cool and tops will ping and seal
some folks take jars every so often from the hot water and give them a real good shake to help mix things up
my first batch i tried one jar and used veg glyverine as the add in. when i later opened the jar to test it it seemed very dry to me so i mixed in another ounce of the glycerine to improve texture.
ive seen someone who used this recipe but used 2oz of coconut oil PLUS 2 more ounce of veg glycerine. this would certanly improve the end texture but youd need to remember if you added and increased the amount in eash jar you have to factor that to get your right dose because it would be more than the 2.4 gms dose whohc was based on only 2 oz fat, not 4--see? just keep that in mind.
store in a place away from heat and light, a cupboard or even under a bed
dose starts with the size of a pea twice a day
you work up to taking 2.4 gms split throughout the day
do this for at least 6 months at high dosage
i have started the paste dose and am up to about half the 2.5, im going by feel on this i had to order a scale so i can measure precise. it arrives Thursday, lol.
i take a small pea size in am after food a small one mid day and a larger one at bed.
the mid day dose made me feel draggy and tired, real turnip like. so i stopped the dose for a couple days and just do am/ pm right now. will do this 4 days and add in the mid day dose again.
when the scale comes i want to measure the 2.4 gm because i need to get familiar with the amount so i know what i need to work up to.
ill have the next batch in a couple days and let you know.
i have breast cancer and im gonna kick its ass
Sunday, July 26, 2015
Breast Cancer
so i got breast cancer and i am gonna kick its ass. i already went thru the shock, fear, pain, poor me crap and am into im pissed off.
i still have to learn how big it is, where it is, etc, all the important details but i know how i am going to kill it.
cannabis oil and/or paste
im going to tell you how to make your own oil and paste safely and easily. there is lots of info out there, and if you are lucky enough to live in a state where it is legal, you can make your own medicine.
living in Colorado, i feel very lucky to be able to grow and buy and make my own medicine. i am not a pot smoker, never have been i dont use it to get high or messed up. ive earned how to make tinctures for fibromyalgia pain that has helped a great deal, and now the paste and oil.
there are so many different ypes of plants, heck, i really have no idea on all the details. i am growing 2 indicas called Cammomile and 4 annonymous sativas. sativa is used for energy and perking you up, indica is relaxing and helps with sleep.
in still a newbie here and am looking for a really good high CBD strain i can keep growing with cuttings so i can keep making the paste, tincture or oil.
make your own medicine. i will be showing you how.
i still have to learn how big it is, where it is, etc, all the important details but i know how i am going to kill it.
cannabis oil and/or paste
im going to tell you how to make your own oil and paste safely and easily. there is lots of info out there, and if you are lucky enough to live in a state where it is legal, you can make your own medicine.
living in Colorado, i feel very lucky to be able to grow and buy and make my own medicine. i am not a pot smoker, never have been i dont use it to get high or messed up. ive earned how to make tinctures for fibromyalgia pain that has helped a great deal, and now the paste and oil.
there are so many different ypes of plants, heck, i really have no idea on all the details. i am growing 2 indicas called Cammomile and 4 annonymous sativas. sativa is used for energy and perking you up, indica is relaxing and helps with sleep.
in still a newbie here and am looking for a really good high CBD strain i can keep growing with cuttings so i can keep making the paste, tincture or oil.
make your own medicine. i will be showing you how.
2015
july 16, 2015.
new post. heck, i didnt even know this blog still existed, i thought i can shut it down, i guess that goes to show what i know.
i wanted to start a blog because i found out i have breast cancer. i thought it would help to write things out, ya know?
alot has happened since i last wrote, what, ayear or more ago? live got busy, my eyes got worse and i am truggling. now i have breast cancer. crap.
so i am dealing with a bunch of stuff. have filed for disability back in march and spent alot of time sending in all sorts of records and files. .then having tests done as i had been dealing with a long term sinus thing over christmas holidays and then dizzy spells. still got the dizzy spells. so i was having a bunch of tests done and on a whim i had a mammogram as it ha been about 30 years since the last one.
and it showed a mass on my right breaast. so i went back in for a diagnostic mammorgam and a sonogram and a biopsy. it came back positve.
ductal carcinoma, focal invasive carcinoma.
sucks.
im waiting now for appointment with breast surgeon to discuss all my options, lumpectomy, radiation and chemo.
aint doing it.
i will go and talk and listen and ask questions, what stage am i, how big is it, how much and where has it spread, etc, etc.
but i tell you right now--i aint taken chem or radiation, no way.
ie been doing some studies and decided on the cannabis oil , essiac, alkaline water, nutrients and change my diet. other people have beat breast cacner by doing this, i will too.
new post. heck, i didnt even know this blog still existed, i thought i can shut it down, i guess that goes to show what i know.
i wanted to start a blog because i found out i have breast cancer. i thought it would help to write things out, ya know?
alot has happened since i last wrote, what, ayear or more ago? live got busy, my eyes got worse and i am truggling. now i have breast cancer. crap.
so i am dealing with a bunch of stuff. have filed for disability back in march and spent alot of time sending in all sorts of records and files. .then having tests done as i had been dealing with a long term sinus thing over christmas holidays and then dizzy spells. still got the dizzy spells. so i was having a bunch of tests done and on a whim i had a mammogram as it ha been about 30 years since the last one.
and it showed a mass on my right breaast. so i went back in for a diagnostic mammorgam and a sonogram and a biopsy. it came back positve.
ductal carcinoma, focal invasive carcinoma.
sucks.
im waiting now for appointment with breast surgeon to discuss all my options, lumpectomy, radiation and chemo.
aint doing it.
i will go and talk and listen and ask questions, what stage am i, how big is it, how much and where has it spread, etc, etc.
but i tell you right now--i aint taken chem or radiation, no way.
ie been doing some studies and decided on the cannabis oil , essiac, alkaline water, nutrients and change my diet. other people have beat breast cacner by doing this, i will too.
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